Posts Tagged ‘satisfaction’

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30 Days of Truth – Day 17

December 7, 2010

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

I walked away from this post HOURS ago because I was sure there wasn’t a book that changed my views on anything. Then I thought about going with the smartass route and mentioning a textbook of some sort. Then I randomly thought of a book. It’s kinda cheesy, but it’s true.

The Shack, by William P. Young, is the author’s account of a personal tragedy and the rediscovery of his faith through an unexpected and unbelievable series of introductions and events. Basically, he meets God in the woods at the shack. This visit challenges his preconceived ideas of God and his way of living. Okay, enough of the book report and on to the changing of the views. I can see one of my sisters right now, btw, being very excited by the direction this post is taking. No worries, though, I am still my lovable agnostic self. BUT, in a way, this book did prove to me that I am agnostic and not atheist. It made want to believe in the characters presented in the book. It made me envious of the author and the impact the divine intervention/nervous breakdown/hallucination/wishful thinking had on his life. It encouraged me to know that someone else out there thinks that the notion of a vengeful god is absolutely ridiculous.

I’m not sure where all of this was going. I’ve taken two quizzes and watched three tutorials throughout the writing of this post, so the train of thought was kinda interrupted. But I’m back on the wagon and will be posting every day again (provided I don’t come down with another plague).

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30 Days of Truth – Day 5

November 21, 2010

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

I’m bypassing the emo, introspective post today and going with a simple bucket list.

  • Go to Mardi Gras
  • Do a polar bear club swim
  • Find a career that gives me a sense of fulfillment
  • Become a mother to happy, healthy, well socialized children
  • Have the strength and endurance to participate in physical activities
  • Age as well as my mother
  • Go whale-watching
  • Find my passion in life
  • Become a better communicator
  • Find patience for people over the age of four
  • Visit all 50 states
  • Have a home in another country (at least temporarily)
  • Learn at least two more languages
  • Own a ’69 GTO Judge
  • See Victoria Falls
  • Visit Petra tou Romiou in Cyprus
  • See Klimt’s “The Kiss”
  • Drink a beer with a celebrity
  • Have enough money in my retirement to enjoy my retirement

I’m sure this list doesn’t cover everything, but it includes some trivial things as well as some important things and since life is a combination of those two, it looks like a good place to start.

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30 Days of Truth – Day 1

November 17, 2010

Thirty days of supposedly thought-provoking, self -reflective blog posts. Now, as you can see by the number of posts here, my blog is wildly active and I can hardly restrain myself from posting several times a day. Yeah. Right. So in light of my propensity for procrastination and the upcoming holiday season , I am going to amend the meme to reflect the truth of ME and rename it to 30 Truths Stretched Out Over an Undetermined Amount of Time. Yes, I think that has a nice ring to it.

And on with the show.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

I imagine this might be a difficult one for happy, well adjusted people, but luckily for us, I am neither of those things! I suppose we could take the route of examining what I don’t hate about myself, but… That’s Day 2, sillies, let’s not be too anxious. I’m going to assume that the meme maker wasn’t speaking of physical “somethings” when they created this item on the list, or we could go with the usuals of extra weight here, grey hair there, an ever deeper and more prominent wrinkle right there (yes, botox is in my future, I don’t care what anyone says), etc., etc. And honestly, that would be a little… banal for my taste anyway. Ah yes, the procrastination and avoidance has gone on quite nicely for the last couple of sentences, hasn’t it? Okay, okay, let’s get down to business.

The thing that I hate the most about myself would have to be… See, now, here I am again, trying to decide what to say. And it really isn’t procrastination or avoidance, and it certainly isn’t a lack of things to hate, but… I guess it’s not such an easy question for even the most embittered souls out there. Sorry, happy people, I was unjustifiably harassing you again. There’s this thing that those happy people have that I haven’t figured out yet. They’re full of… something (no, not THAT) that I am missing and can certainly feel as a void in my life. They have passion. (And you have to have the correct image in your head when you read that word, btw, or we can’t continue. It’s the balling of the hands into fists and the slight lowering of the voice and the flexing of all the muscles in your body. Go ahead, try it, you know you want to. Okay, good? Good.) There’s a drive and an oomph and a passion that I’m lacking. I am the dark side of inertia and I hate it. No one thinks of inertia this way because everybody remembers the ball or the matchbox car demonstration. Away it rolls until gravity finally slows it or something changes its path. And that’s how I see people- happily rolling away, dealing with their daily life. But you have to remember that inertia is the resistance to a change the state of motion or rest. I am at rest. Perpetually. I don’t have the oomph. I don’t have the passion. I don’t have what’s needed to give me that first little push down the hill. Unless, of course, it’s a deadline or timeline or something of an externally imposed nature, but I’m not going to count panic or late fees as my passion. Now, maybe there is no such thing as the passion or oomph I’m talking about and I’m making excuses and just need to give myself a swift kick. And in that case, I hate my apathy. Flip sides of the same coin, I suppose. I can’t hate something I don’t have, right? Fine, I hate my apathy. It keeps me comfy and cozy and not caring and not wanting. Yes, I’m working on it. No, it’s not progressing very rapidly. But I’m trying, and maybe this little blogger challenge was just whatI needed to get that ball rolling.

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52 Weeks of Color – Blue

November 14, 2010

Blue. My shoulders sagged when I saw what Luna’s Color Challenge was this week. I have a strange confession to make. I hate the color blue. HATE it. Which is an odd thing to say because I think clear blue skies are beautiful, I think the deep blue ocean is gorgeous, I think the wild blue chicory growing by the side of the road is lovely. But when it comes to clothes, blue is the last color I would wear. Ever. So, it’s even more interesting that, despite the DEEP digging I had to do in my inventory to come up with the couple of blue pieces I did find, I really enjoyed putting together these photos.
I’ll go ahead and give you a two-for-one on the confessions while I’m at it. I know very few people read my blog, that plenty of the hits are Envi (Hi honey, thanks for reading! *mwah*) and that I have no one’s expectations to live up to but my own, but… (And that’s a big “but.”) But I have… performance anxiety? Blog anxiety? I feel this pressure to turn out something decent so I won’t be TOO embarrassed to share with all of the fabulous SL bloggers and photographers I have on my Plurk TL. Now, I don’t have the endurance or the desire to regularly update and I can’t spend any more lindens than I do without going broke as it is, so I can’t quite keep up with all the fashion hoopla, but I was able to teach myself a wee bit of photo editing. Basically, I’m addicted to GIMP now. I want to edit everything. I’m checking out other people’s Flickr pages and trying to recreate effects and emotions that I see and I’m coming up with a bit of a style of my own. I’m getting better, but I’m still not… satisfied? enthusiastic? proud? of many of my photos. And… that whole ramble boils down to two things: I have very little confidence in my skillz and I over-edit as compensation for having no real knowledge of graphical/illustrative/creative whatnot.
I fully intended to work on these some more, making the background go with the blue theme a bit more, but… I kinda love them as they are. So. Here you have it. My unedited, straight from SL, blue blog photos. Enjoy.


Credits:
Hair | *TSM* – Shroom (LE Dark Shines Blue)
Shirt | fri.day – Longsleeve Boatneck.Tee (White)
Bottoms – KHUSH – GeGe (Blue)
Arm Warmers | [Plastik] – Leo Warmer (Psyche)
Necklace | Tea Lane – Bouvier Orange Pearl Necklace
Heels | Tea Lane – Eve Bouvier Orange Heels
Pose, Photo 1 | Exposeur – High Fashion 10
Pose, Photo 2 | Exposeur – High Fashion 4

Windlight Preset | [TOR] SCIFI – Shilarto

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Header

June 9, 2010

Holy crap, I actually did it. Custom header. Yay me!!