30 Days of Truth – Day 29January 13, 2011
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Ugh. Talk about timing… This has been a week full of self-loathing and self-pity. So asking me that question right now gets you the answer: everything. But I suppose that’s not altogether practical. Damn.
This is actually something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately, you know, with the introspection and joblessness and depression and whatnot. I can find plenty of faults but not that many solutions. And even when I’m able to recognize a flaw — What did you say? Ohhh, right, we’re not using realistic words like “flaw” anymore. Too negative, obviously. Right. — Even when I’m able to recognize a characteristic of mine that I’d like to change, I’m not usually… something enough to follow through with it.
Now, I’m not promising to follow through with this either, but I suppose there is something binding about putting pen to paper, so to speak. The behavior(s) that I will be trying to recognize and change is my intolerance. For myself and others. I’m impatient and harsh and judgmental. Among other things. I suppose I’ve been trying to change this part of myself since I was a teenager, so I’ve had a lot of practice but not much success. No, thank you, I don’t want your help. You’re already bugging me. LOL But I refused you nicely, didn’t I??